Grasshopper Dreams 2.0

The Week That Was

Why is it so hard to start writing a new entry? I mean, I left it for around a week plus, and when I want to write, nothing happens. Why?

Ahh, now that's a good warm-up. a bit harsh, but that gets my mental muscles flexing. Okay, now for the real thing...

Ah, what a week it was. the week of 20th to 26th of February will go down in history as The Week That Was. I mean, crazy poopies happened. (yeah, trying to cut down on my swear words, so I'll just cute-ify it.) And didn't even happen right on the week. It happened on the weekend before...

Crab Island

On Saturday, Princess and I went to Port Klang. Granted, it's not an ideal place for a dating spot at all. I mean, PORT KLANG? DATING? But yes, we went there. On the trusty bike even. We went there because we had a whim and just wanted to go places. See new stuff. Besides, there was this inside joke where a friend of ours accidentally reached Pulau Ketam, where the actual destination was just the Main Campus a few kilometers away...

Anyway, we wanted to go see Pulau Ketam for ourselves. The trip there was crazy. I felt guilty over exposing princess to the environments and the sun. After the long bike ride, we finally reached -- the jetty to Pulau Ketam. And another surprise, the end of the line of the KTM Komuter train was here, the Pelabuhan Klang station.

We lepak'd in the jetty, and princess managed to get her cob of corn. The water there ain't Pangkor, but at least we got some ocean breeze (with a hint of diesel, mm-hm.) Then we went to up the road, in an excercise of close-your-eyes-and-see-where-this-road-leads-to. And it did lead us to somewhere special.

Near North Port, was a nice little beach called Tanjung Harapan. It looks like Klebang beach, especially with the rocks instead of sand. But it was nice there. Cool breeze, nothing unsightly nearby, save the jutting towers of North Port. It was a nice place.

Going back, we used the NKVE instead of the old road. We even managed to take a closer look at the emergency phone at the side of the highway. Note: this time it's a new design. Not the old-skool phone with reciever, this time the mouthpiece and speaker is built straight into the pole. Imagine a very long and slender phone reciever, and you'll get it. Imagine two kids looking like fools playing with the phone, and you'll see us.

After that, off to the CC we go. This is where Princess wrote her v-day blog.

v-day

Erm, reading that comment by Dea made me blush. I mean, it's nothing big la, sayang. (Yeah right.) I just wanted to show my princess my appreciation for her. I knew I had to get something for her.

Back home in Kangar, I had this idea to make her a personalized hankie with a big red heart on it. I saw her personalized face towel and I thought I could do it too. I planned the stuff, and bought the items in Kangar. I made it in Shah Alam. Thank God I got a good reception from her of the gift.

As for the flower, it's a last minute impulse. I never intended to but flowers for her, but the cashier asked me if I wanted to buy a flower, and I immediately said yes without batting an eyelid. The cashier was more stunned than myself.

As for the setup, I really don't know what time to give her the stuff. I was really anxious by then. I considered her would-be reactions and created virtual situations. Finally I settled with giving her the flowers in the morning and the hankie later in the day. I would've given the hankie in class, just for extra drama, but I know she'll kill me afterwards. Sorry sayang.

Thank God her reception towards the gifts was good. And for the record, I don't believe in Valentine's day. Correction, WE don't believe in it, and I can give the gifts any other day. But I think that day is a good day to appreciate the loved one in your life. So there.

Okay... we're segued into something else. Let's get back on track and focus on the supposed topic at hand: The Week That Was.

19th

On the 19th, Princess was acting all weird. I could see her smsing people. Looked serious too. Life and death, no doubt. But I hated it that she was doing it in the middle of a date. So I chided her softly about it. I even wished whoever it was on the other side luck and happiness. She just laughed a nervous laugh.

Later she asked me to drop her off at Amoi's, because she said she had something to talk about with her. I wasn't suspicious about it, most probably girl talk. I'm not gonna risk my neck for that. So I left her. Later I picked her up.

On the morning of the 20th, it was my birthday. And nobody wished me a happy birthday. Being the pathetic turd that I am, I felt dissappointed. I think I even had a bout of depression that morning. I mean, nobody remembered my birthday? How depressing can that be? I even softly nudged Princess and asked her what day it was, and got back a stupid reply: it was Monday. That was it, I'm officially depressed.

At the same time, I noticed Princess was getting agitated and even a bit pushy. She went around my back and talked to people outside my hearing. But I guess I was too depressed to notice those things. Very sneaky, sayang.

As we went out of campus, Giant called and asked me to get back home. Urgent, he says. He even spoke with a sense of urgency. Cursing, I went up home. I don't like to be disturbed when I'm depressed as hell. I dragged Princess up to the house.

Lo and behold, I got the surprise of my life. There he was: Giant, with a cake on his hands, complete with two big candles and four small candles. On the wall, a big "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" was stuck on the wall. All the housemates were there. There it was: a surprise birthday party for me.

Surprise!

It was a damn good surprise, I was speechless. I couldn't even stand, let alone blow the candles or cut the cake. Princess had to sit me down. My hands were shaking as I cut the cake. All of them laughed. I was embarrassed, I was speechless. More importantly, I was touched by all this. I had to use up all my strength to hold back my tears. Hell, I had to hold it back again as I'm typing this.

The birthday boy was dumbstruck. Later when I finally regained control over my body, I asked who planned this. Giant simply answered, "bini hang tu la." I looked at princess and I hugged her. Thank you, sayang. Thank you Cherane.

She laughed at me, saying that I thought she'd forget my birthday. She said she didn't. She had this all planned out since a month ago. The gears started moving on the weekend. The weekend that we went to Port Klang.

Apparently, she could conjur up a conspiracy theory worthy of CIA involvement. She did everything by remote. She gave Giant the orders to buy the cake and the set up. She even gave the money to Giant, using me as the unwitting posto-boy. She asked me to pass some notes in a file to Giant, not even realizing that inside the file was the money and orders.

And the sms during the date? That was Giant, and she was giving further orders for him. Under my nose. And the girl-talk at Amoi's? That was actually a de-stress session. She was was so stressed out keeping a secret from me. Sigh, *hugs* I'm sorry sayang, for putting you through hell.

So there it was, my first birthday party. Arranged by my princess. I love you, sayang. You're the greatest.

But no, it doesn't stop there...

Acci-bleeping-dent

That was heaven. This was hell. What happened? An accident happened, that's what.

We were on our way back when another bike struck the right side of us. We weren't hurt bad, but the other motor suffered bents and scratches.

I'm sorry, I just don't want to elaborate about this. The accident wasn't that bad, but the aftershock was. For starters, the freakin' riders were just highschool kids. And they're more worried about the bike then themselves. Why? "takut mak marah." Everytime an image of those kids flashed in my mind, i just want to strangle them until [insert very graphic violence here].

The mother was actually kind. A single mom, she's very sweet. no hassle there. The kid, I actually wanted to [insert more violence]. hmph.

I told Giant later that night, including to the price of repairs that we asked a shop right after the accident. Giant fumed about it. Too pricey, he says, and he wanted to take a look at the motor himself. We went there and take a look at his motor. We discussed and finally made arrangements to meet with the boy's uncle the next day at 4pm.

The next day all three of us (Princess, Giant and myself) went to Putrajaya to send Giant's dirty laundry and to get his car serviced up. A simple stop turned to an excruciating wait as the repairs took longer than expected. We're definitely going to miss the meeting.

So I called the family up, and I was met with a very angry uncle. Hmph. I told him we'll get there. A bit rude, if not a lot.

We reached the family at 6pm. Giant did most of the talking, and we finally reached an agreement. Thank God for that. I would like to put the accident and the negotiations behind me now, cause it sucks balls.

Sunday

On Sunday, Princess got a slight fever. SO there I was, putting wet towels on her head. Stubborn as an ox, this girl. At least there's abang to take care of you, so let me take care of you. Later that day we went back to Putrajaya to take care of unfinished business, and we went back to Shah Alam for some teppanyaki. And we were worried about the flood that hit Shah Alam, so we just went on the alternative routes.

Later that night, Giant and I went to watch Man U play Wigan. I only stuck for only the first half. I went back to sleep, and thus, The Week That Was has ended. Sigh.

Argh, can't write anymore. Later.

RLC

Pain & Support

First, to reply to the messages.

@Fird: yep, they sure are. Cute little buggers. So how's life, dude?


@Lase: the RLC thingie? Eh, it's a simple acronym play. The players? Me, Pablo, and that one little thing that starts with the letter L. Hehe, try to figure that one out. In the meantime, you could try and break the CLOVER code too. same code-play. :D

@Lase again: Hey, you still have family over here. Pabs and I are there for you. And then there's EMiNA too.

Hm, life's been going too fast nowadays. Schoolwork's a bee-atch. Tons and tons. The usual. :p

Somehow, it's been a zen-like experience with the homework. At least you get distracted by the work. But of course, social life should never be forgotten. That's where the pain starts...

What I mean is, when friends face troubles in their lives. You are obliged to go and help them. At least be there to listen to their woes, and give moral support.

I love the job of the moral supporter. But it doesn't mean I love seeing my friends suffer. It breaks your heart seeing them hurt. And worse, you can't help him or her. All you can do is, give moral support. Sometimes I hate this job.

They would call upon you, ask you to keep them company. And then they pour out their worries to you. And I'll be there to support them. But it hurts to see them hurt. I want to do something to ease their pain. I don't know how to help aside from listening to them.

But the thing is, (and I'm still surprised at this) they appreciate me listening to them. It's like the burden are lifted from their shoulders, even if it's only a little bit of the whole. You can just see it in their eyes, the appreciation.

Still, it hurts to see them hurt. Sigh. Wish I could help them. Wish I could.

Sayang, I love you. I thank God that you're here for abang, and I will always love you.

Uh, no more time. Later.

RLC

Empty

It's 9pm. My bus back to Shah Alam is at 10pm. And? I can't think of anything. At all.

I switched on my PC, and I stare at it blankly. Open up the browser, and I don't know where to go.

Watching TV. At least there's Juara Lagu. But I'm not into it. I'm just staring into space.

Trying to sit still. my body aches. All over. Popped a pill or two. Doesn't help. Maybe I'll feel better sleeping in the bus later.

My princess? No word from her. Called her, said she was out to town, shopping. I let her be. Maybe I wanted her to teman me. Really really tak sedap badan ni. Feeling empty.

I miss her.

Goodbye MMU

Finally the mood to blog came to me, but without the idea flood. I had to wring the little bastards out. Sigh.

So, I'm back home now. It's day two. The total number of anything constructive that i have done? Zero. Goose egg. So far I've been surfing the net looking at-- no, not porn, but comic book reviews or summaries. I don't know why. Really. Now as I sit here trying to type this blog, I am struck dumbfounded, that I had wasted 24+ hours reading comic book-related stuff. Huh.

Oh yeah, before I proceed with the blog, I just like to wish my Princess a happy 5-month anniversary. It's been a helluva ride these 5 months. And it's kinda sad that we're not together to celebrate this anniversary. I promise you, there'll be a surprise coming. I love you, sayang.

y'know, I could've gone out to town and actually do something. The top of the list would be to top up my phone(s). Both of them expired already, and that means I can't contact Princess over the cell. Of course, I could just call her thru the house phone. I just don't want to kacau her. Bet she's having the time of her life. And I bet Kota Kinabalu looks fantastic in pink. Don't you think so, sayang? (other weird colors are good too.)

Well, let's start blogging here. Hm, What stories can we tell...? There's the Melaka trip and Bukit Cerakah outings, but I'll leave them to Pabs to tell it all. She has more colorful vocabulary than mine anyway. ;) Ah, but I could talk about my thoughts here and there.

In the Melaka trip, one of the places we visited was the MMU campus in Bukit Beruang. As you all know, that place holds a lot of memories there. I've blogged about it before. But this time, when I visited there, there are no emotions triggered. We passed the places that once had a special meaning to me, the places of my youth. And to my surprise, I felt nothing. I half-expected that I would cry or something, but it never happened. There wasn't any heavy feeling inside me. Yes, it was fun to see the places I had roamed in my youth, but the emotions that were attached to it has gone. It felt like it was another place to me. It was a campus, yes. It's just another campus. I felt like a stranger in there. I really couldn't believe it.

When we got out of the campus, it finally dawned to me that I have moved on. There is no more reason for me to get attached emotionally to this campus anymore. It's weird. I have another campus now. But more importantly, I fell in love with another soul. Maybe because of these two reasons, my mind reckons that the old emotions pertaining to MMU should be put in a box and stored neatly. I need the space for these two reasons. Especially now that I am in love with a girl. Sigh.

So I guess this is a final farewell to MMU. A farewell to the MMU in my heart. A farewell to Bukit Beruang. These places still exist physically, and I'm sure I'll visit them again, maybe as a visitor, maybe I'll work there. But in my heart, MMU exists no more. Goodbye, MMU.

Ironically, as I type this, I'm listening to MP3s from the MMU days, mostly anime related. Also, the keyboard I'm typing right now, I bought at MMU. So does this very PC I'm using. All from MMU. Ironic. Heh. Even if I have forgotten MMU, I still can't and would not forget the experiences, the stuff MMU has given to me. More importantly, the people of MMU, especially Lase, and Hilmie. Two best friends, and countless acquaintances. Heh.

(writing break. Gone to enjoy a fruitcake. :D)

Okay, I'm back. (munch, munch.) What else has happened, hm? Oh yeah, CNY. Happy CNY, people. Sorry it's a bit belated. :D And it's the year of the Dog, too. that means... I'm 24 this year. Holy Crap.

Ah, I've been looking at my old post, but only as far back as a year ago. It's very entertaining to read what I did a year ago. Not much of a cringe-fest, more like I smiled at myself. Guess my experiences here are much, much better, hm?

Speaking of CNY, the university decided to shunt up the mid term break, which is why I'm here how typing this at home. The thing is, Pabs and I didn't immediately go home on CNY. We went back home right after it, which means we have a few days to have fun over here. One of the activities was Cycling at Bukit Cerakah, which Pablo will gladly tell about it.

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This is a bad time to experience Writer's Block. I can't think of anything to write about. Great. Well, I'll blog again later.

RLC

[p.s.: I fulfilled the promise to write a blog "esok". Heh, funny.]

Cute Crayola Glory


This was a result of a doodle chat. It was too cute to leave it behind. So here it is, in all it's Crayola glory.

Oh, happy 5th month anniversary, Sayang. :) i love you.

Hm, anything else to write about? Oh yeah, Happy anniversary. I love you.

Oh, you mean the blog? "Esok lah." :D

I love you.