Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Creative fingers and skipped heartbeat in Shah Alam
Orait, here's a new blog. Have at it!
Meh, new blog, and first for Shah Alam. Let's hope thing's are well this time.
Sadly, not much of a creative fingers today, so I might lack in the poetics of me. (as if I'm poetic in the first place.) So I'll try my best to post.
Hmmm....Shah Alam. The shithole of Malaysia... Nope. Shah Alam, a fairly big play for a city boy like me. Oh yeah....
Shah Alam, a fairly big play for a city boy like me. If you don't watch it, you'll get lost. Like I did during registration day. Damn city is so huge, and the lack of signboards to show the out-of-townners the way to Main Campus. What, ya expect us to know the way there, since it's the main campus? Too big of a city, and too little signboard numbers.
Anyway, after registration there, we went to the actual place where I'm gonna study: Section 17, and the place I'm gonna stay: Section 18. Quite an okay place, considering it has a frickin' pasar malam every monday in front of my apartment and a plethora of food places just a walk away? I guess I won't be losing weight anytime in the next 4 years if things are going like this.
The place is okay la kot, McD, KFC and Ayamas on a single row, got Giant just a stone's throw away. Going to the campus pun easy-peasy; just ride the feeder bus in front of the college.
Oh yeah, my buddies are here as well. Except one boy and a few girls. Sad. But things are going well. I got a different apartment from the rest of the boys, 3rd floor. But the boys have to climb 5 floors to their 'penthouse', heh heh. Eating is a tough one, as we had to eat out because the college has no dining hall. My god the mamak houses are all around here, although I've heard it's pricey. Haven't tried any of them yet.
We're having a ceramah of sorts in the faculty. It's kinda like orientation day, but none of the hazing or tiring stuff. We just have to sit in a lecture hall and listen to the lecturer yapping about basic study skills. I mean c'mon, mind map? I've been doing it since I was 11 years old! And I don't appreciate it then, I'm not gonna appreciate it now. But the other modules are okay, it's just to familiarize with the hazards of degree program. That reminds me, haven't I done a degree program somewhere?
Uh, I guess I could do some high-quality blogging today, but something--no,no, someone finally showed up and it made my heart flutter like the days of old. (Ibanez, it's [BLEEP], fyi). I never thought she could affect me after all this time and after all this heartbreak. She didn't show up for the past few days while the rest of us are keeping each other company. I guess she didn't register yet for subjects, too. I knew she would show up sooner or later but I never knew my stupid heart could still be weak around that girl. God damn. We were just coming out of the feeder bus after a day of lecturing (it's not even class, it's just lecturing) and out she stepped out of her car, smiling. The group greeted her and all the usual hoopla (actually i like to use 'hoo-haa'; to make noise when in a group). She greeted the girls and hoo-haa'd with the boys, but it felt like she didn't look at me. Yeah, it's maybe me, I don't know. But what I know is that in the instant I saw her face, my heart just skipped a beat. Dammit. I'm not supposed to have any more feelings for her. It's all past-tense. kaput. No more. But if you just look at me at that time, chiss.
I don't want any more feelings for her after this. Let's hope...no. Let it be the last skipped heart I have for her. She is now my friend, wheter she acknowledges me or not. I'm in Shah Alam fer cryin' out loud! I have a new marketplace! It's time for me to market myself and let my voice be heard, let my face be known, let's open up a new chapter in your sorry life.
Let's open up a new chapter.
Let's.
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
Last blog from home....
Argh #**@^%%@D&$%%@!*#^#%!!!11oneeleven!!1%#*@%!!
I planned to write a final blog bfore I go to Shah Alam for real. There's even a good story about the past 2 days.
But alas, I'm too tired. My eyes are too heavy. Well, nothing to curse about it then.
Final words from me: I'm going to Shah Alam, guys. Thanks for sticking it up with me all this time. I guess this is the final blog entry I'll be making from my PC for a while. The next time you read the blog, I'll be in Shah Alam.
Shah Alam, baby.
Friday, November 19, 2004
Late mail?
Holy spam-filled blogspot, Batman!
Gah, even with only the total of two readers, you two are really good at spamming my blog. Actually, it's quite funny la. And it also shows that I don't have many friends. :P Hehehe, nevermind.
It's semi-official: I'm going to Shah Alam. Register there on the 25th. Why semi-official? I got the offer letter thru UiTM's intake page. I prefer to recieve the offer letter in my mailbox. Real, printed paper in an evelope with a UiTM letterhead, printed on it the offer for me to go to Shah Alam. NOT a letter I had to open my browser and click that URL and print the letter using my own printer.
In other words, the mail's late. Grrr.
I'm really angry that the mail's late. I've never been angry for late mail before. Worst-case scenario, the mail will arrive the day before the actual registration day. This is no imaginary scenario, it really happened to a friend of mine.
Oh well.
Damn, you guys can spam the comments box. NO, I won't put up that tagboard just yet.
PS: Lase, why aren't you online anymore? I missed chatting with you.
Thursday, November 11, 2004
Random Bites...
I'm gonna do some newsbites today lah. Nothin big happening, but...naah. Just read on.
It feels like I'm in Baghdad:
Damn kids playing the fireworks again. I guess the kids aren't afraid of the law anymore. Maybe because the law ain't taking notice this year.
Whatever it is, in the coming nights of Hari Raya the fireworks battle is really heating up. Rockets zipping overhead, firecrackers exploding here and there. I guess any minute now the Occupation Forces and the Delta Force are gonna swoop in and take over the town :P.
My bro and I like to keep tabs on the casualty numbers of fireworks victims: how many fingers lost, did that boy lose his eye, do the doctors have to cut off both his arms, and which state the stupid victim came from (there are two obvious states :P).
Sad thing is, now it's 1 am, and it's silent. Psh, those kids are not extreme. C'mon, gimme a finger or two!
Tech/Game news:
Can ah? Wowza.. Dammit, at a time like this I really want an Xbox. It's not because ofthe hype of Halo 2 or DOA, no. I guess I want another console? :p
Firefox 1.0 released. Finally. I'm really digging into Firefox right now. I'm really against using IE because of spyware/adware problems. Damn, I sound biased. I dunno la, every time I do tech support on an infected PC, I always ask them, "What browser do you use?" "IE." Uh.
The most common of infections? Dialers and pages to porno site. What?! IT's either the surfer don't know what they clicked on (but clicked it anyway), or they really do visit those porno sites. Urgh.
Learn to surf intelligently, people! Or get off the damn Internet!
I could go on forever, but I'm dry on this topic.
Raya Stockpile:
Oh yeah, we've all ready for Raya with our usual stockpile. Containers of Raya cookies strewn around the kitchen, but my favorite stockpile are the drinks. Three dozen 1.5l bottles of Coke, Strawberry and Orange carbonated booze. Oh yeah :p.
Raya weather forecast:
Past Rayas always end up wet in the rain. Usually the morning is kinda cloudy with some trickle now and then. Then the afternoons usually end up drizzling aith no guest coming. Heavy rain close the day.
Looking around the sky, I guess this year's Raya gonna rain again. Big dark clouds cover the day. I can see the rain in some areas far away.
Somehow, I always thought that the weather is influenced by my feelings. Yeah, cheezy innit? Heh, lemme layan my feelings once in a while. I guess when I'm feeling down, the sky would rain. So does that mean I feel down every time it's Raya? Ouch. I should feel happiness around this time, so why the hell it rained? Maybe it's something deep inside me. Probably I'm unhappy or sad about something, and it reflects in the weather.
I've seen the oppsite happen too. When I feel really happy or at least feeling upbeat, the sky is really bright, and not even a single cloud in sight. Pergh.
Yelah, this is soo cheezy I could try to seel it to Pizza Hut.
But, y'know something? I think this year's Raya is gonna be a really bright affair. No clouds. Really really bright. I know it. Why?
It's because I think I'm gonna go to Shah Alam after all.
City Life?:
You read it right, folks: I think I'm going to Shah Alam! YESS!!
I got a 3.2 cgpa, which is more than enough as a ticket to Shah Alam. It's stated that to enter the TESL degree programme in Shah Alam, I have to have a minimum cgpa of 3.0 in the second semester.
I checked my result online this afternoon. Actually, the results only mean that I have a 3.2 cgpa, but it doesn't say yet that I'm going to Shah Alam for real. For that, I have to wait for the mail. Urgh.
Initially I don't even want to check the online results. I guess I got kinda scared to check the online result. But after some coaxing from my cousin, I opened up the browser, smiled a happy smile. Oh yeah. Now to wait for the mail. Damn agonizing.
So, I guess this is the end of what my Dato' Seri said "Your fortune is in Melaka". It's bittersweet, leaving Melaka, but now my fortune is in another state, and I have to go and catch it.
Am I happy?:
Of course I'm happy. I'm happy that I've finally got out of Melaka. I'm happy that my fortunes are not of Melaka anymore.
Heck, I'm firing off some of my favorite tunes in Winamp to celebrate. I went out with my posse to celebrate. Of course I'm happy.
But that bittersweet taste is still lingering there. No amount of Coke I've consumed tonight managed to take away that feeling. Somehow, I feel sad leaving that state.
I practically grew up as an adult there. I've experienced the best times of my life there. I've made friends with the best people I've ever known. I fell in love with the place, especially MMU. (especially MMU.) No other place. To me, MMU is Melaka. Alor Gajah is Melaka too, but sadly it doesn't hold the same magic that there is in MMU. I fell in love with the campus. I fell in love with the people there. I even fell in love with the girls there, especially one who will never know how i really felt about her.
It's bittersweet because one lifelong friendship with a gruop of people started there. My legacy is still up and standing. The girl whom I could never express my true feelings is still there. Even the support from my Dato Seri was there. I even have a friend who become my adopted brother there. Even the Bear Hill waiting for me to conquer it again and again. It's all there.
Sigh, yes, I know Melaka is only 2 hours away from Shah Alam. Yes, I can go there whenever I want. Just a simple bus ride there. I know, I know. But...meh. Just let it be, okay? It could never be the same anymore. The town's changed already. The campus has changed already. I've changed. Let it change.
Let the past stay in the past, and as a memory in my mind. Things will never be the same. I will only have the memories of things past, and I promise to never let go. Never.
Chiss, i'm crying. Dammit.
Closing comments:
New pictures in the album. Go check it out. Will be putting up the tagboard, if I'm not malas enough :p. New layout pun, and again if I'm not malas enough. Somebody help me? With the layout I mean, not the malas thing. That I can do myself.
Th-th-th-that's all, folks.
Monday, November 08, 2004
Strike 2...?
Ok ok...Let's try this again. Let's try and rewrite the lost blog. Lucky I still have the motivation and some time to burn away.
First off: to my dear readers, yes, I'll get a spamboard. Although I don't know where to get one. But I'll get it (actually, I could just Google or just look around other people's spamboard. But I won't do it. Obvious reasons, huh?). I also wanna change my blog design. Something of my own, I guess. Initially I wanted to get an anime-based design, prolly cilok from DayDream Graphics or something. But aside from the usual M demon, I think I'd better design my own, at least flexing my Photoshop skillz once in a while. But oy, the HTML is makin' me dizzy...
Dang, talk about time wasted. Later, peeps. let's hope I still have the motivation later to rewrite. :p
SERVER ERROR ?! ARGH !!
Dammit...I'd spend a substantial amount of time writing a blog up here, and when come the time to publish, the server goes kaput! Dammit! Argh!!
That's a lesson for me. I tell ya, I really hate investing my emotional quota for something that actually gives an error message. That post really taxed my idea bank, and I'm really not pleased with this. Chiss.
Well, what to do. A lesson's still a lesson. I thought I knew more than this. I thought I'm knowledgable than this shit; thought I couldn't fall into this trap again. Arghghgh!!!
Too tired to rewrite it. The sad part is, I'm unbelievably motivated just now to write a fairly long post. But with this incident, I don't know if the motivation is still there. Lessee la...
...Don't let this post go to waste either...Or this'll tax my anger banks too.
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