Friday, March 04, 2005
Mystery lost
Erm, couldn't thought that a single post on someone else's post made me wanna blog...Well, a decision was made tonight by Lase on her blog, Legoland. She simply wanted to come clear about herself, and not hiding behind the moniker of "Legolase" anymore. She said there'll be no more lies and bullshit and she personally welcomes people to go and talk to her. She basically wanted to write more about herself and her life more often.
Reading that, I felt two opposite opinions: One is that it's good to come out behind the Legolase. I guess it's time for her to be more frank in blogging. She wants to open herself to the world, and somehow I welcome her effort. She even wants to post pictures of herself (but fearing she would be viewed as perasan). Basically she wants her blog to be all about her, not Legolase.
The other opinion is that I'm not that okay with that decision. I know la that I don't have a say in her opinions. Her words are hers alone. I could only watch and give ringside comments only. Of course she can do whatever she damn well can. But somehow, I feel that she's making a mistake by opening up her life.
Somehow, I feel that this move will make the mystery that is Legolase disappear. To me, Legolase is a mysterious dame. She is the mystery, her surroundings are a mystery, and she lives off the mystery. She could even be a princess in some secret country, and nobody would know about that. Legolase is Legolase, blogging off her webspace with that (godawful) live action Sailormoon banner.
Of course la I know Legolase personally. She's been a great companion during those lazy hazy days in MMU. She's stubborn to the core, and strong-willed too. We socialize during those EMiNA days, which reminds me that she has great leadership quality that is evident after I left MMU. I remembered the time I announced my resignation in front of the EMiNA bigshots, and that she remained silent and looking down at the floor. I asked her later why, and she said she was too emotional to say anything at that time.
Even untill now, I value Lase as a great friend and confidant. She is the shoulder whom I cry to when I have the problems. She finds me personally to whine, because she knows me. I find her because I know her.
But all those communications were done without us being face-to-face. Except for a few precious moments where met f2f, the rest was done electronically. We talked all the time, online. We chatted about stuff using IMs or through the forums. Topics were discussed and argued in cyberspace. I remembered during the Long Post Wars, each sides had lots of material and each typed like there's no tomorrow.
I whined to her in the IMs. I let out my frustrations to her, and she consoled me. She finds me to whine about stuff, and I talked to her. All this was done under the cover of cyberspace. She was just Legolase, and I was just Syaoran. Pseudonyms for two persons who rarely see each other. With the rarity, comes the aura of mystery. Who knows what Lase looks like when I whine to her? What's her nonverbal expression? Is she annoyed? Is she smiling?
Thus, when the decision to open up came, I felt this more than I felt the other polar opinion. She is likely to lose her mystery. She is likely to lose Legolase, the crazy girl who likes Legolas the elf so much.
Ah, I'm venting all this for nothing. I respect her decision to open up. She don't need my final words to do anything. She can do what the hell she wants. I'll be here supporting her in the shadows, as I always am.
I guess I'm saying all this because I don't want to do that same thing. I'm saying all this to hide the admiration and the proudness I have for her having the balls to open up.
She is one in a million, after all.
Legolase, I salute you. You have my full support. I will be watching your back from the shadows like I've always been all this time. If you need someone to whine or to talk to, I am always here. Call me, beep me, if you wanna reach me.
*sniff*
Wow...
This is the kind of blog that you really can't say anything. This is between them.
Lase should be here as 1st poster, after all this is a tribute for her.
I don't know her for long but i think that she is brilliant. and because of that she will be always have an aura of mystery.
What she actually write will only show a part of her not her as a whole.
Syaoran, a woman does not lose her mystery just like that. No matter how open she is. Trust me.
Good luck Lase. May your days be merry and fine.
I salute you.
*eyes shining*wind blowing*
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on a lighter note, what is otak-otak?