Monday, June 13, 2005
Abandonware
5 days since a last update, and it already feels *that* long. Lase can do it in a longer time, why can't I do it too? :PTo tell ya the truth, I almost reached a point where I decided to take a break from blogging specifically, and from the internet, in general. Hell, I even photoshopped the banner to reflect my sabbatical from blogging.
At that time, I felt overwhelmed. Things aren't going right in Syaoran-land, be it about computer stuff, or social stuff. My pc's going bonkers (not a good thing), and I haven't fulfilled my social obligations. I'm losing it, and in turn, I felt I'm losing my mind.
Enter the decision for the sabbatical. I wrote up my decision, even made the sabbatical header, both ready for post. But before I posted it, I wanted to show someone first the write-up, as I consider this someone very important to me and I appreciate her very much.
Just so it happens, this certain someone can't go online on the day I finished the write-up. Fine. I postponed posting it until I get the chance to show it to that said person. I finally did show it to that someone, two full days later.
By that time, things have changed. The once-dried creative batteries I thought I was suffering, was slowly recharging back. The dark weh-weh mode I had was fading away. Re-reading the write-up, I saw a pathetic little prick, trying to find a quick getaway.He found it in the words "I quit." I wanted to abandon the blog. a quick way out, indeed.
By then I realized, what I needed wasn't a sabbatical, but a short breathing space for myself. I don't need to unplug and take a long walk along the beach (although I welcome that prospect) but instead I should just take some time to think about my own welfare. Back away from the comp, go meet friends, have a cuppa. A time for myself, a time for reflection, without the cheezy-looking resort advert images. Hahaha....
So in short, I realized that there's no need for a long vacation, just lots of short breather space for yourself. I also realized that a blog doesn't have to the about fancy pictures all the time; a blog is about the writing, what comes into the mind, and weaving the thoughts to make an entertaining read. I used to do that a long time ago.
Maybe I should take a walk along the beach and try to find it. :P
abandonware? new virus? :?
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