Monday, April 11, 2005
An Algernon Moment
I feel like I'm losing it. I'm losing my grip on my mind. My ability to think. All I can do now is float in this empty space. With no lines to call horizon or wall, I just float...It feels like it's slipping through me, like a handful of sand falling down through the fingers. Falling slowly..
It's not yet 48 hours and I'm already feeling despair and bored. What I'm really afraid of is that I'm losing my mental capacity and ability. In true Algernon moment, I'm regressing into my prehistoric self, devoid of any mental processes.
I don't want that to happen. I don't want to take control of me. This is my body, my home. I won't surrender without a fight. Over my dead body and mind.
In other words, I will use this blog as a diary of sorts of my battle that is raging inside me. I want to really defeat this vile creature. It will not take over me. I have plans and I want those plans fulfilled.
I'm working on a new layout for the blog. That's the top priority. Others include playing around vector-tracing. i'll put up any updates. I'm not gonna let this battle be a silent one.
I might lose this battle, but at least let this battle be known. Algernon finally regresses back to his old retarded self, but I am determined not to. I will not let my mind catch rust.
Ooh, ps2!
First poster! *clap*clap* 2 days in a row!